Thursday 12th January 2012
Wow it's true! Time does fly when you're having fun!! I was quite shocked when I saw how long ago my last post was!
Well I am pleased to say that like the Little Red Engine, I'm still chugging along. Although instead of being the Little Red Engine I think I am more the Big Pink Caboose!!
So to start my story again - the Big Pink Caboose is still chugging along!! We have chugged along so much that we are now at a new station with a nice new yard and pool, thanks to a lot of hard work! I have to say with all this chugging I am flabbergasted (flab being the key word here!!) - as I was saying I am flabbergasted at the fact that after all the moving and lifting and renovating that I am still carrying my big caboose!! Holy moly! Why can't I be one of these people who just loses weight with a click of their fingers!!
To make by overactive thinking brain feel better - because it is so hard living with a brain that just keeps thinking!! Especially when that thinking is about useless crap and has not been used for anything useful in a long looooooong time! After a lot of thinking I decided (so please humour me and let me go with it!) that I must've been one of those super skinny bitches in my last life that used to be able to eat what I want and never appreciated what I had so that means that in this life I am on a lifelong diet that doesn't work!!
I have just finished reading Portia de Rossi's book Unbearable Lightness and all I can say is wow!! I was so surprised to see how someone who seemed so together could be feeling so messed up inside!! And as terrible as this may sound, it was comforting to see that I wasn't the only one who has ever felt this way! I have to say though, that I took a lot out of her book. The main thing is that I will not diet! Instead of depriving myself of something that I like and then obsessing over it, I will remind myself that I can have it anytime I want and then the obsession is eliminated!! I am now doing that and guess what? It works!! Since moving into our new home and eliminating negativity (from within and from other sources) I have lost 4 kilos! No diet or exercise, just good healthy living and happiness (and renovating) - obsession is gone and so is the pressure!!
So although I feel like my big caboose is still there, it has shrunk just a little bit!! This is why my first entry from this year is a complete turnaround from last year! Yes - I will still go to the gym (I love the classes especially Zumba), Yes - I will continue to have a great time and enjoy my friends and family, Yes - I will continue to be happy and positive and squeeze as much out of life as possible but my big no is - I will not diet now or ever again!! Nothing can be good with the word die in it!!
Apart from my usual resolution where I must try something different every month, this is my other resolution - I will not diet, I will have fun and I will not apologise for it!
Happy New Year!!
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