Changing Gears

Monday 25th April 2011 - Anzac Day

Today has been a very quiet day.  We didn't go to the dawn service or to the march or anything like that and have been watching coverage of the different services on the television.  It's humbling to hear the stories of service men and women talk about their experiences during the different wars and what they had to endure.  I certainly feel very lucky to have lived such a sheltered life!!  Seeing this footage today certainly makes you think about what has been sacrificed so we can live the way we do and puts a lot of things into perspective.

This blog has been very helpful to shame me into staying on track on my quest for health and weightloss but I have felt over the past week or so that I have changed in my own way of thinking.  I have found that I have allowed life (and some people in my life) get me down and I then start to feel resentful that I don't get to spend time of the things that are important to me.  I am slowly learning to say no if I can't do something instead of making myself sicker with stress trying to please everyone.

I have been very blessed to have a fantastic hubby and children and also fantastic parents and a few very close friends that allow me to be myself.  These people know the real me and it is comforting to also know they like me for who I am and not what I can do for them.  I now have the confidence to be just me and know that that's okay!  Our friendships are also strong enough that they will tell me to suck it up when I need to hear it and vice versa.  This is what I definitely need because I know I can get caught up in myself and sometimes need that friendly push to get over myself.  For this I will always be so thankful for meeting such strong, honest and fun people!!

This newfound knowledge has been a real comfort and has given me the strength to forge forward and keep trying (and sometimes failing) new and fun things.  It's also enjoyable to try these fun new things with my friends who always are up for a bit of adventure and fun too.

I am still feeling the pain of my pole dancing venture in my left shoulder and although I may have trouble changing the gears in the car I have changed the gears in my life and I thank my lovely support network for that!!